Exactly twenty eight days ago today, I heard the words that so many of us fear and dread: My doctor looked squarely at me following examination and said, "I feel certain that this is breast cancer."
As an English teacher I constantly try to impress upon my students the value of a word and the power behind each and every word that is chosen by an author in his/her work. But, there are ABSOLUTELY NO WORDS to describe how I felt at exactly the moment I learned I had breast cancer. I remember thinking that if I could shake real hard I could erase her words and I felt what seemed to be hot, melted candle wax running through my veins, but that's about all I recall...............what a blur that moment is now................My doctor was on my left side and my mom was on my right. I still ache for my mom that she had to be there with me. As a mom, I can only imagine how she must have felt.
NOW, for the positive news: I am a 28 day survivor and despite many, many difficult days.........I have begun treatment as of today finally feel like I'm moving forward FOR REAL!! My oncologist's office is a most pleasant place and all of the good things I had heard about it are absolutely true. I was blessed today to have a rotation of my mom, my husband, and my sister-in-law during my treatment....and of course a steady round of phone calls from my sister. Except for having to interrupt my medications to go to Baylor Hospital for a heart echo, the day wasn't bad.....that diversion just made it last longer.......8-3 was a long day!
After treatment, Evan and I picked up my wig. I really like it...as much as one can like a wig....wearing it all day will be a different thing I'm sure.....
My family was blessed with Babe's Chicken dinner brought to us from our neighbors, the Camps. We are so fortunate to have such a plethora of family and friends who offer constant support and help!!
I'm saying a special prayer that the following two days won't be too treacherous with chemo side effects so that I can work two full days....If I can make it until Friday, 3:30...I'll have time to crash then!!!
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Karen,
I was thinking about you yesterday having your first chemo treatment. You are in my prayers and hope the next couple of days go well for you and rest up over the weekend. My mother-in-law is a 3 year 9 month survivor as of Monday and I know you will be too!
You go girl!
Kindall
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